Hey, y’all! I know I have been
pretty quiet silent lately. There are several people who have even reached out to check on me. (Thank you!) I wanted to give you a heads up as to why I’ve been silent. This post has taken well over a month for me to write. I just couldn’t find the words, the right images, the realness, the rawness to do it justice.
See, I am a Christian. I am fully, completely, totally saved and live a Spirit driven, Spirit filled life. So, I’m supposed to be “joyful”, right? But, y’all, I also suffer with depression. There have been times where I have been accepted and my depression was no big deal. There have been times where I have been told to “buck up” and “think of others” that “it’s selfish to be depressed”. I along with 3 million other people have a time of year that gets us. We are bogged down and unable to function as we normally do. When the sun goes down earlier, it is hard to get our spirits to lift. For the most part, I don’t require medications to treat mine. I am usually able to push through. This fall was different. This winter, I was broken. I felt torn apart with a depressing spirit that would not release me. So, I have been on a break while I refuel my spirit.
I don’t know why I feel like I need to explain myself to the 20 or so people who will read this, but there you have it. I am honestly broken and desperately in need of a savior.
So, I am hoping to be back to my usual posting schedule soon. Thanks for sticking with me. I am headed outside to my deck to get some sunshine and Son-shine.